There’s no other place where I can vent. I despise being home on weekends and probably the next weekends to come. It’s a first for me to say I’d rather be in school everyday and do school work than be here. I’d love to stay in my calculus class or whichever class, I just need to be.. away. I can’t stand being alone. I need to be surrounded with people; I need to be busy.

and yes, I’m hurting.